One day looking back you will ask
finding the missing spots in the past
why did I let go those who cared, and knew would last…

my friends care…

i have landed with a migraine again…and my friend Shaun said something that he read somewhere which got me thinking…

it says…

“Headaches come from invalidating the self . . . Forgive yourself, let it go, and the headache will dissolve back into the nothingness from where it came . . . Migraine headaches are created by people who want to be perfect and who create a lot of pressure on themselves. A lot of suppressed anger is involved ”

well…most of this is so true…

SS finds me many times just staring at a wall for hours…in my mind i might be solving some complex problem, i take just too much pressure on me trying to be perfect…and in relationships…i always – always try just “too hard”… which may not be the right way to handle a relationship anyways….

i am not sure if this is the cause of my headaches tho…coz i remember me crying with similar pain when in class 3…and my dad’s orderly (help in defence) who held my head for hours when i was lying down with a headache in 5th std and he did not go home till dark saying “baby ka sar dukh raha hai” (baby’s head is paining)…wonder what problems / tensions i had at that age…may be a broken doll, or my friends cheating in pithoo (seven stones)

what ever it is…it is good to relax and chill anyways…helps migraines or not…it surely will help me live my life better…so Shaun…thanks….will try to work on it!!!

Do not take my Smile Away

We live, not for long…

this is how the cycle goes… we are busy with friends, party and fun when young, before we start understanding life , we enter middle age with responsibilities, and while we are busy building security for our family we don’t even realize when the time to retire comes……in our last days we look back to see a series of pain and sacrifice we did willingly for family, friends, people around …..but what do we gain for our own self, for the inner self?

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